October 2006

October 29, 2006

Reality and Sanity Bites

Dear Reality


I've learmed that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is pray and stay hoping that someday they will give in. But guess what, it will never happen. Specially if he loves money and himself. It hurts most when you learned he love someone else because they are fucking horny and good in bed. He loves them because they love him less than you do. They enjoy and find it cool being together because they just fuck around and doesn't care about other people.

Meow Baby Meow Baby... isn't it good to hear such roaring of sweet voices shouting for a mouse that runs around playing hide and sex... Meow Baby Meow Baby. Alternately being fucked. Fighting over a spilled and spoiled milk that doesn't even taste half good as other milk out there. Poor pussy and bebe it is bad for your health and it won't stay for good, it will never will.

I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people are just assholes to care for themselves. Care for other people who doesn't give a damn.

I've learned that I shouldn't compare myself to others and be insecure for the love and attention he give. Those were more screwed up than what I thought.

I've learned that regardless how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be a lot of money to take its place. Money matters at all. Sex spice it all up and if someone is way hotter even uglier than you are as long as ggod and horny you're nothing but a loser. Right horny baby... meow meow.... pussy...

Now I've learned that love can never be kind with me so I decided to shift my gear and change pace


Money can buy you Love.

Sex is better and sweeter than Love.


Love is just a dream.


Sex, Lies and Money is what REALITY's made of.


Spicy Color of Life.


This is my so-called simple yet complicated life.





Yours Truly,

Sanity

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October 14, 2006

Insensitive

Insensitive
Jann Arden

How do you cool your lips, after a summer's kiss?
How do you rid the sweat, after the body's bliss?
How do you turn your eyes, from the romantic glare?
How do you block the sound
Of a voice you'd know anywhere?

1-Oh, I really should have known
By the time you drove me home
By the vagueness in your eyes, your casual good-byes
By the chill in your embrace
The expression on your face, told me
Maybe, you might have some advice to give
How to be insensitive, insensitive ooh, insensitive

How do you numb your skin, after the warmest touch?
How do you slow your blood, after the body rush?
How do you free your soul, after you've found a friend?
How do you teach your heart
It's a crime to fall in love again?

Oh, you probably won't remember me
It's probably ancient history
I'm one of the chosen few
Who went ahead and fell for you
I'm out of vogue, I'm out of touch
I fell too fast, I feel too much
I thought that you might have some advice to give,
How to be insensitive
(repeat 1)

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Dear Lie

You suck
You said you could fix anything
Instead I'm fucked
You made things even worse for me
If I had balls I'd tell you get away from me
Guess I'm not smart
I let you unnerve me
I let you control me
Afraid the truth would hurt me
When it's you that hurts me more

Chorus
Get outta my mouth
Get outta my head
Get outta my mind
Stop puttin' words in my head
Get outta my mouth
You're nothing but trouble
Get outta my life
Get out of me
Out of me (out of me)
Out of me
Out of me lie
Lie lie lie lie

Dear lie
You're dumb
You think you've got the best of me
You think you won
Misread my vulnerability
I've got your walls
Now get the hell away from me
I've learned your art
Won't let you unnerve me
Won't let you control me
The truth will only free me
And your lies won't hurt no
No more

Chorus

Lie lie
I've got (I've got)
Your walls (your walls)
Now get the hell away from me
I learned your art (your art)
Won't let you unnerve me
Wont' let you control me
The truth will only free me
And your lies won't hurt no
No more

Chorus

Lie lie
Dear lie
Lie Lie Lie Lie
Lie Lie
Dear lie

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October 11, 2006

To You

I know you've been hurt. I know exactly how it feels. If you only knew me as well, you will never think that I might just be a bratty selfish girl. I know how difficult it is and painful it could be. Trust me. I wasn't fooled once nor twice and it was all made of the man I have loved most.

I always think of others and love them first before myself. I tried to be as good as I could be.. but my fate is trying to test me. How far can I go and how long can I bare it all? I never felt the real happiness, it was all pain. And the hardest part is, I didn't do anything. Took all the blame and carry all the burden on my own.

I don't deserve such treatment, nobody does, but life is very unpredictable, playful and tricky. It would never give you a clue or two if your going to be at a loosing end. Win or loose, we still get hurt, right. Honestly there is no winner nor loser. We are just but playin and gamblin our hearts to get hurt. It is the excitement and thrill it brought us that drive us to go on and still play the game of life. It is our choice, our cards, our risk, our hearts.

I am also a simple girl who dreamt of real happiness. If you look at my heart right now. It is hollow. Empty. Bleeding. Full of pain. But at the corner was a small hope for happiness to revive it all.

To you, I know how you feel. I know because I was in your situation before. Same case. They are now married and expecting their child by the end of October. But I was you before, I didn't know as well, I was hurt but it was the kid that I thought of and I thank you for doing the same thing for my little angel. You didn't do it for me. Because both of us were wounded, you did it for my angel and I can't thank you enough for that.

Till then. You'll be treasured but not blamed nor condemned. I am sorry.

Thank you.

~ Geraldine ~

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The Past

I was wrong when I hurt you
Did you have to hurt me too
Did you think revenge will make it better?
I don?t care about the past
I just want our love to last
There?s a way to bring us back together

CHORUS:
I must forgive you
You must forgive me too
If you wanna try to put things back the way they used to be
?Cause there?s no sense in going over and over
The same things as before
So let?s not bring the past back anymore

Out of all the good we had
Though you knew I never really loved her?
No, no, no?
Didn?t anyone tell you yet
To forgive is to forget
How can you be mad if you don?t remember?

Repeat Chorus

Instrumental

I must forgive you
And you must forgive me too
It?s the only thing that?s left that we haven?t tried to do
One thing that I?m sure will work
That we haven?t tried before
Let?s not bring the past back anymore

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October 10, 2006

it's done

To someone,

Im sorry, I was carried away. Hope you understand. I do understand and I do have doubts, yes, but it won't help if I keep on pushing you. Ill just be quiet for awhile. We will wait for you dad. Ill shut up Ill just try to heal my heart first. I know you are dong your best. I didn't mean to be so mean. Okey, we'll go through it together. Ill stick with you and wait. At the end of the day.. it is still going to be us.

We'll get through together. Sorry for the doubts. I shouldn't have, I gave you chance I know you'll prove that my doubts were all wrong.

Loving you and having you back means giving my due respect and trust.

We Love You. I may not utter this very often and respond to it since yesterday, but in my heart it is all true.

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October 09, 2006

Let's Wait Awhile

There's something I want to tell you
There's something I think that you should know
It's not that I shouldn't really love you
Let's take it slow

When we get to know each other
And we're both feeling much stronger
Then let's try to talk it over
Let's wait awhile longer

Let's wait awhile
Before it's too late
Let's wait awhile
Before we go too far

Remember that special night
When all of the stars were shining bright
We made our first endeavour
To stay together

We made our very first promise
To love, to share, and be real be honest
But on that very first night
It wasn't quite right

Let's wait awhile
Before it's too late
Let's wait awhile
Our love will be great
Let's wait awhile
Before we go too far

I didn't really know not to let all my feelings show
To save some for later so our love can be greater
You said you would always love me
Remember I said the same thing too
You don't have to be frightened with my love

Because, I'll never give up on you
Let's wait awhile
Ah well before it's too late
You know can't rush love, love

Let's wait awhile
Before it's too late
Let's wait awhile
Wait awhile
Our love will be great
Let's wait awhile
Wait awhile
Before we go too far

Let's wait awhile
Let's just take our time
Before it's too late
Let's wait awhile
Your love's so good
Our love will be great
We shouldn't rush in
Let's wait awhile
To slow it down
Before we go too far

I promise I'll be worth the wait

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so sick

im lost.

hurt.

torn into pieces.

it's the lies and deception.

it's the love she fought for.

it's all OVER. and she was GONE.

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is this all lies?

to the girl

you've been hurt, i know you once lost your loved one but how could a woman who have loved a man for 4 1/2 years and beyond that was aware of all the deceitful deeds. then eventually lost him. how would you feel? the pain of grieving because He took him away from or "she" took him away from you and He always put you on a situation where you're going to be stuck with him.

the deception and infidelity.

please take good care of him. im really tired. my child is tired as well.

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it's OVER

im tired and sick of all the lies you have brought me and my child.

you don't deserve us.

tell me the truth. love and lies doesn't go along with each other.

if you love us and brave enough to prove na kami ng baby mo ang importante and mahal mo. tell her. im sick and tired and i want to be happy and not fooled because I was not born so you can fool me and hurt me and bring me all the pain in the world.

it's all OVER.

it's final and good-bye.

there are some things in life that's not meant for you, some things that are

what would you do if you were in my position, will you curse them and hope all liars will be burnt in hell.. listen to both parties because once you've been in her place.

but when you learn about it you let go of the person right and be on the right track. why fight for something which is not meant for you. someone who belongs to another person. someone who doesn't care about you and doesn't mind hurting you in a zillion times. why hold a relationship that doesn't work for you. why stay for someone who doesn't give a damn time.

no back fires, backstabbing scam you are trying to get through and post a revenge. if you are a real person.. it takes two to tango. you believe the lies, partly it's your fault. you insisted to be with be attached beyond the fact he was never true to you, it's your decision.. partly your fault. now whose to blame. who has to pay the price of pain. the scar wil never be removed.the trust is hard to be earned back.

will love see us through. will you realize the reality amidst you. will you learn that letting go is the best option. wll you give up your rights for another person.

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October 04, 2006

Letter from Nicole

hey mommy

you've been through a fortune teller and hear so many revelation. things you already know two ladies who's been near his heart. One lady he was born on the same year he feel in love with and one young lady he was into right now. they were dating and stuff. he was cold towards you and regret being with you.

you wish you can win him back right but what he tries to show you is quite contradicting with the perception with the cards. your faith in him and love is stronger than ever. but your good heart cry out loud that you should give yourself a time off. time to let the real men to love you back. or you're just being uncontented.

you prayed and realized, everything they have predicted and your premonition was true but God's Plan is way better and challenging. mommy, i know what you've been going through right now and it is the hardest part to forget your own health and happiness just to make other people specially me have the best and perfect life. mommy, hope things will work now only for my betterment but for you as well.

you love daddy that you are letting him go right and just wanted to move on on your own and take all the risk. you wish to give me all support but they keep on instructing you what to do. you are now confused and pressured. instead of enjoying all the joy i could bring but thank you still for saving my life for sacrificing everything. giving up your career, men who loves to be with you, friends you wanted to go out with. you give it all up and even the freedom from the pain you've been receiving being with dad. you love him so much , he is your source of strength and own weakness. source of all happiness and heartaches.

you love him so that you let him run away with cathy and mae. iselle found her real man she will be contented with. with maye, you bear all the shame because it is proven that you steal daddy from her. not only that, you befriended med and make sure she will be happy with jon just to save the relationship with dad.

the fear of loosing dad, the pain of staying with him, the desire to spend your life with him is all vague and destroyed. it all come to an end. mommy thank you, because you sacrificed everything you've dreamt of for your little baby and for daddy.

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fairy sad story

i hate to accept the fact that the person you cherished the most was concerned with other people and doesn't even give a damn on you.

He can stay for his subordinates because according to him they needed him most.

Good cause his girl was nothing but a pain in the butt.

I dreaded to be with someone who really deeply cares.

Moves the mountain just to run for me.

Will leave who the hell they are with just to be with me.

And most important of all to rescue me from distress and not cause all the stress in my world.

when can i find such man who'll love me and be selfishly mine.

i can share, i am willing to share and understand but fuck why i am the one being taken for fucking granted.

i can't stand the undivided attention and the fucking focus on people who really needs you or you are trying to impress.

fuck i am so sick.

sick of being the last priority.

please my knight and shining armour come rescue me from this nightmare.

a desire i've been longing for.

i hate it because i have no way out in this freaking fucking situation.

i can't be with any other prince charming.

please tell me where you are right now.

just give me a good sign.

my knight and shining armour my real saviour.

i wish i could have gave you the chance to prove all that love you've shown me.

i wish i was able to return the favor.

now here i am, alone and narrating a fairy sad story of mine.

11:43 am

09-28-2006

typhoon milenyo.

3rd flr bpi bldg.

mkt city

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The Perfect Catch

One day a girl was crying over some lost tuna she captured but then another girl came and tries to pacify her and let her realize there are some good days to look for her perfect catch.

That day came she found herself picking up her big catch, a blue marlin. They've been the talk of the town. Hottest couple and pair ever. But after all the sunny day, one dreadful day arrives that will threathens this happy ever after story. The tuna she had before came back and now she was all stock with one big decision on letting go and staying for good.

No way out, only if she could run out and run away with blue marlin she would. But tuna has 1 big alas against her heart's choice.

Cannot turn back time. Every chances and happy moments were all gone. But the all of these sweet times with you blue marlin will be kept in this little girl's heart.

Blue Marlin was named Dada.

Hope you'll find your perfect match dada, cause you've been a perfect catch.

Im sorry dada...

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Sun, 24 Sep 2006, Juana 3A

baby,

daddy face your lolo and lola, mommy is he happy because daddy proves he really loves you.

don't worry mommy is going to support dad and will not pressure him instead be thankful and love him whole heartedly.

baby, our little angel thank you for making us both strong.

mom and dad loves you so much.

excited to have you as well.

be good.

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Letter to Nicole

Dear Baby,

Baby, mommy here, sorry if I was so stressed out this past few days.

Didn't mean to be so mean and hurt you unknowingly. I'm praying and hoping you are all good down there. Mommy is doing her best to eat healthy and good food just for you.

I wanted to tell how much mommy felt when I first learned you'll be here with us. Honestly excitement came first and then eventually fear of how to tell your daddy, knowing that he is not yet ready for this. But baby when daddy learn about it, daddy was happy as well, startled and scared but I know there was such unexplainable joy he felt.

That is the first time daddy hugged me that tight, assuring he'll never leave us.

Baby, I know we almost lost you but daddy and mommy will take good care of you now. We may not build and prepared the best world for you yet but we'll do our best to make you feel better and loved and both were working hard on it. We love you baby. We are both excited to see you.

Help mommy get through it baby... daddy is working so hard for us... guide and pray for him okey.... be his lucky charm... mommy will do her best to be strong for you both...

We are now three... it's not for both of us but for us... the three of us....

Daddy, mommy and baby....

We Love you.....

From

Mommy

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Just Got Lucky

Just Got Lucky

If only I will be given a chance to feel such attention other ladies get from their special someone, I will be the happiest person alive.

Ladies have been so lucky to have a boyfriend whose not afraid to show affection and be proud to be their partner.

Ladies whose been swept off from their feet.

Flooded with too much attention and sweet nothings.

Flowers and undying sweet messages.

But why a simple girl who wish to have a tiny bit attention will always loose one and lucky ladies friends, exes, flings fubus, colleagues always

have the affection she always dreamt of.

Im not bitter nor demanding.

Taken for granted, maybe... are maybe he does love me but he is too comfortable he is not going to loose me not that expressive.

Tired nope. Exhausted yes. Drained .. ohh yes...

Givin up almost. at the peak, almost fallin..

Just remember ladies all of you has been so lucky to be loved and get the affection this girl i've known...

To Ms. 2001 #3 I am sorry that I steal your baby. I know you've been through a lot. Been sharing sweet moments and even seen a walk to remember,

I was mad not knowing I don't have any rights because you are the GF. I didn't mean to steal him.

To Ms. 2000 #5, I was looking for you, dreading to see the face and body they keep on comparing against mine. How he fell for you knowing you've been attached with another guy. I envy you not knowing you've been in such pain as well. I am sorry I was envious about the attention he gave you. I hated you without even knowing you. I am sorry.

To Ms. Scorpio Pretty Friend of his cousin from Pilar Village and INFONxx.. congartulations you and Jon was back together, I've been your friend and thanks for being so nice. I always pray I could be as smart and tall as you are. And always wish you well with Jon, cause I knwo you love him.

To Ms. Same Old Friendly Miney who made a letter and left a chocolate and shared wondrous moments with him. Who was given 4 options and narrowed down to 2. I am sorry that I really hated and cursed you to death not knowing you didn't mean to hurt me and was of course fell for the man I love as well. I am sorry and also happy to learn that you are happy with your own Miney, you looked good together and now I envy the smile you have and the bond you share. Bond I always dreamed of.

To the most recent concern, Ms. Meow Sicat Angel of your Night is my beau, you might hate him for you fall for him so much and as much as i do. Sorry because I really hated you and was really pissed off that you got all the attention I was deprived for. Lucky you to share those so called memories with my beau, good that he made you happy. He almost left me I don't even know if it is because of you. You've been so proud to announce and let other people know your attachment with each other, honestly the pain you have caused still scar my haert, the wounds is trying to mend on its own.

To the little girl who owns him, supe ko to!! iha... your young and vulnerable be happy and contented with your better half "Johnny" because he is head-over-heels in love with you. You were used to it and you will definitely looked for it.

And to all the girls who've been loved and inlove with him before you all just got lucky because I've been dreading the attention and affection he had provided you. You all were lucky to be loved the way he did. The love and passion and enthusiasm I always draemed of. Love I still pray will come for me and my little angel.

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Fri, 22 Sep 2006

Honey

i love you

honey i miss you

honey im scared

honey im strong

honey im weak

honey i just wanted to be with you

honey im sorry

honey i love you

honey i do

i wanted to spend the rest of my life with you....

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